This post is dedicated to u shaleen, my dearest friend

There is nothing much I can do,
There is barely nothing much I can say,
And nothing that I do or say will change the fact that u have lost someone very dear to ure heart,
Death is inevitable,
something all of us will face within due time,
It is the last thing we want to think about,
Its the last thing we want to wish for... especially for our loved ones....

I cant imagine losing u as a friend, so there is no doubt about how i feel bout losing my family to this dirt grey earth...

There are a few of us on this earth that can bury their loved ones with such strength and poise...
and u dear, ure one of them....
God has given u so much strength that I wish I could hold, even for an ounce....

Honestly dear, I deal with lost and death very badly.... and to top it off I'll be dealing with more of this when i start working... and I ask God everyday..."If I could have even a little of ure strength to help me through this life"

Ill always wish u well, I wish u happiness in this life and the next, I wish u a beautiful family of ure own with a guy that makes u happy and I always want good things for u....

I might not feel the heaviness of ure heart right now, but I weep for u and ure lost....as if he was my own....

And uve always told me... "aku kan daddy's girl"
And Ive always known a daddy's girl is always the tough one in the family....

I wish i could be there with u, I wish I could be there more earlier, but God has made His plans in such a way....

Im sitting infront of my desk, on it is a the frame with our picture in it, the one that u gave to me before u left.... 4 years was alot of drama... but good drama's, and i miss every second of it :-)

So when i have a sucky day, or when the doctors tell me Im not good enough... instead of breaking down, I think bout people that inspires me to be where I am today, and U might not know this but u are one of those people....
One of those people, who are able to smile even when u know things will never be the same again... to walk an extra step even when ure heart carries a heavy burden....

so dear,

do not fret,
do not fear,
dont be sad...

God listens to our prayers.... and for each of your prayers, 10 more people are praying for u and with God's grace I am one of those 10....

Ure dearest friend,
Dama.